Ink stains on my hands

I can’t seem to remember the last time is was here, at this place that I could call home, where I am accepted for who I am and loved for me. For many it is a dream land, but somehow it felt very real. Rainbow skies, candied houses, pots filled with gold and fairy tale endings filled every space of this dimension.  There were doors everywhere rooms and frilled with doors. Every door opened a dream that I had the lost ones and bad ones. Aims and hopes were also found here too. The only difference was that it was completed, the dreams that is. The bad dreams were kept in a taboo section of the dimension.  Everyone that I met was kind, helpful, loving in nature and generous and just perfect as can be.

As I looked around I felt a strange happiness just inhabit me. I decided to take a walk around to explore the place, which seemed so perfect. I explored every happy dream that I could come across but I took a wrong turn an came to a dead end. I decided to turn back but something drew me closer to the walls of the dead end. As I approached, something pulled me in, like a vacuum of some sort. I closed my eyes thinking I was going home, but before I could open my eyes, I felt a cold chill and a wave of depression replaced my happiness. I slowly began to open my eyes only to find myself in the taboo section of this dimension.  I could see that everyone’s eyes with fill with anguish, pain, sorrow, hate, greed, deceit, lust, pride and gluttony for material things, for bad things.

The strange thing about it was that I felt pleasure yet pain and depression, I felt sorry for these people and I wanted to free them of their burdens. I saw some people that were captured, being tortured and some beheaded and some were brought here, branded and kept as slaves. Some of these people where from different dimensions, most were from my dimension that were trapped in their sleep or died in their sleep. Many unknown things resided here as well as the worst of nightmare monsters but it was worse than that. It was all real. Demons and evil resided here so I hid so no one can see me, and then I tried to get back to the other side. But it was sealed.

I heard footsteps coming closer as my heart pounded faster and faster, I turned as white and cold as marble floors with fear and curled up behind the broken walls where I hid, hoping to walk up, and hoping that it would go away. But it didn’t.  It kept coming closer and closer until it stopped right behind me. I flinched and my breath got heavy as I shot my eyes hoping to wake up. Then suddenly I heard something that sounded like a rock falling from a height, my eyes burst open with fear and I looked around to see a boy and a young girl. Then the footsteps lead away from where I hid, when the boy looked at me and gestured to me to come over to where they were. As I ran over to them, the boy looked at me and said, “Keep low and follow my lead, we’ll take you to safety.” They carried me to a safe haven underground. And as we approached the gates of this save haven, they slapped chains on my hands and took me prisoner. For they thought I might be a spy so they cover my face with a blind fold. I tried to ask them where I was but they told me not to speak until we reached their leader for I was held as a prisoner. When we reached inside of the grounds, I couldn’t see anything because my face was covered, but I could hear music and people rejoicing. The boy then unmasked me and I saw this land, this place so full of beauty but yet I could see it was dying. I felt familiar, like a distant dream as I stared at this unknown place. It had structures and houses, temples made of a golden brass, and some structures seemed to float all on its own.  It also had floating structures like elevators that took you to other places and warp portals. A strange world indeed, with far advanced technology. It was very strange indeed, but yet very comforting. Friendly people and animals, traders from far places and from different worlds came here.

I asked the boy where I was and who they were, but he smirked at me and told me not to speak until we reached the leader. He then ordered the guards to take the shackles of. I was relieved that I was off cause it doesn’t feel nice to be bound in chains. Then he was greeted by a man that seemed to be a messenger of the king. He whispered something in his ear then looked back at me and smiled. He offered his hand to me and said “Take my hand so that I might lead you to the leader.” I looked at him and nodded in reply. We stepped up on one the platforms and was then carried away to the leader. As we were moving, I marveled at everything but was quite scared of heights.  Then suddenly it stopped. I turned around and he was looking at me. So he said “ Follow me.” I followed him up some stairs and then he stopped.

He proceed to bow and said” King of Ilindra I have news” the king turned to him and said” Allen my boy, did you find your sister?” he replied “Yes father I did” I stared at him in wonder and awe. Too know that this boy was the prince of Ilindra. Then the king looked at me and said” And who is this that you have here?”  He then proceeded to say” I don’t know but she does look a lot like her doesn’t she?”. The king replied “ Why yes, she does look a lot like her. O and where is Hannah?”. Allen replied “ She’s right here. Hannah was lurking around again but I don’t think she was alone on this. Anyway she’s safe so that’s the good part.”

The king looked angrily and with a loud stern voice he called out to his daughter “ HANNAH! Your grounded until further notice. I don’t want to hear anything and guards, non of her friends are to see her at any point in time.” She angrily looked at the king and with tears filling up ran away to her room where the guard escorted her.

We all crave this thing called love. But what is love? Is it the hormones raging within our bodies? Or is it the idea of love that we fall in love with. i don’t know which it is or might be but hopefully I’ll find out. But to me love is just another myth, a fantasy but it is reality as well because love from family and friends exist. These bonds are strong and very real.

I don’t know about the love from other people’s opinion, but to me I think its all lust. I may be wrong but it’s my opinion. Personally, I go for lust right now. Love only leaves you with a broken heart and lust you get what you need with no strings attached and no expectations. Its better that way i’ll say. But that’s just me. :)

If you have an opinion please let me know. I want to know what everyone thinks about the idea of love.

so im 18 now, plus my boyfriend broke up with me……..cut out alot of my hair…..mostly all of my red hair……………so im single. also im going back to old me, chaos and havoc, party, peace at times, stuff like that :P 
a well i love <3 2012, end of the world as we know it (not a real ending, but a beginning.)

im so excited yet scared…..turning 18 soon…idk what to do :P
but not having a party :/
sigh

it sucks ……
i dont wanna get old O.O

o yay! Its all hallows eve…
i cant wait for halloween tomorrow
although :/ i have full time school tomorrow
caribbean sucks ass
trinidad sucks ass atm
no halloween or trick or treating
cause dumb ass curfew :/
sigh
anyways <3 
imma still dress up and take pics :P <3
post them for ya ^^